This was a picture taken at a house party in Whitewater, WI back in December of 2009. The lovely girl next to me was my roommate Kelli. I didn't go out that much when I went to Whitewater mainly because of my weight. I didn't want to be the fat girl in a room filled with girls who look like abercrombie and fitch models. Not that I wanted to look like that, but you get my drift. I hated trying to figure out what I was going to wear because nothing looked good on me. This was also a hard time for me because I was on accutane and I believed that I was suffering from depression. This time in my life sucked-but I didn't let keep me down. I new I wanted to be more then the happy fat girl, which you can't tell me is a great role to play. I didn't want to be the only fat one in my family, I didn't want to be the fat girl who goes back to a high school reunion even fatter. No one that is fat is truly happy and if you are- you deserve an Oscar.
Yesterday, I put on a two piece swim suit for the first time since last summer. I literally looked at myself in the mirror for 20 mins. I could not believe the transformation my body has gone through. There were so many emotions running through my mind. It's hard for me to fathom how much losing 30 pounds has changed my body physically and emotionally. I will never go back to being like the picture above. NEVER.